As a catholic I always thought life was a straight line; at least that is what you are being told.
One way, one starting point and one goal; you grow up and you study a degree, get a job, get a mortgage, buy a small car and of course, you must marry. So simple.
But it is not that simple, there is not only one road, there are lots of cross roads nobody told you about, you don't have instructions either where to turn right or left and you don't get help or sympathy from your family when you start to think new ways to approach that end of line, or if you actually change that destination for other one, one that is not in the map of degree/job/mortgage/marriage/car.
So then I met Fran at one of my first jobs in London in a sandwich shop; I never made a sandwich before or served a coffee (as I was in my life straight line journey at the degree/office job point). He was from Philippines, recently married to his sweet heart and doing a thousand extra hours as he was buying/expanding a business back in his county.
We were talking about those things you talk at 6 am in a kitchen of a sandwich shop; how sleepy I am, if it is already raining outside, philosophy, life, goals... and then he hit me with a "life is a series of circles, you know, you close one and you start another one, but you can't start one without closing the current one. That's how it works." as he continues doing all day breakfast sandwiches.
That night I could not sleep as I kept thinking about circles and trials and more trials. But what stroked me is that I forgot to ask Fran one thing; it was different circles that we are meant to live or the same repeating circle once and again.
Was I always be moving to new places and having to start from the bottom up as I will always be "new" to those countries? not being able to overpass that non spoken rule that states when you come to a country you have to start from a "job for foreigners" until you are settled, which usually takes 5 and a half years.
The rule that is written nowhere but everybody knows.
I never asked him about if it was that only one circle or many circles. Maybe there are things you better discover for yourself.
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